going to end of second week le.....
now still in school....writing this in thomas laptop....wasn't really boring today in school....but i am feeling the stress now...really feeling very pressure now....i really buai tahan until really hope to find way out to release this....don't know how to....just kept quiet.....wish writing blog will help me out....really hope it will.....
it going end of second week le.....i still the group worst members...don't know anything yet...while the 2 of them know what to do....i already deciding wanting to quit school...and if today i don't decide...i will have to stay in school for this sem le as the school fee will be paid by the next week.....
what should i do now...???
what am i going to do....alot of my friends say don't do this stupid things.....but who do really understand why i feeling this way......they all only see the general side of me....who do really know how i feel....how i do really feel.....
now then i know....no matter how i can be look happy with friends....laughing and joking with friends,,,,,,,i am still not happy at all...totally not happy at all.....
don't know when will ends.....dao di when will end......when will......should i really quit since i can see my 2 group members can handle all the stuffs that needed to finh even without me just like what i last time really worried about......
last night i wake up in the midnight....cause of a nightmare....i should say....i woke up because of me dropping down from tall building and die just like this.....now then i feel it is not nightmare anymore....i do feel i wish to be real....you can say me only know how avoid....only think of my ownself and etc etc....and all......i have been at least for most of the time in my 19years and 10 months of my life thinking of others.....i rather wish to be selfish one time......zhen de wish.....
i think i already crazy le ba......wo yi jin feng le.....zhen de feng le......who can really help me out of this....who......i am very unhappily walking on a piece of vast land with nothing infront....nobody infront of me also.....nothing...nothing....absoutely nothing at all......
Friday, May 04, 2007
10:46 AM
