Away...
i was not online in msn for the past 2 days...those who really know me would be like feeling that is unusual of me not online esp at night....it not becoz of the com spoil or what...i got online...but didn't go to msn...take it as i hide or what...i just want to stay away from msn for this weekend...maybe will be longer....
sorry...is not i don't want to talk to anyone...but i know if i online and then in there for more than 2hrs got no one talk to me...i would be much more disappointed so i rather chose not to get online after fri night....anyway...i freaking idiot...no one care also...i don't think should care also...why bother explaining...
hmm...just read a post written by my friend de friend....she wrote something that i feel is somehow the same as me...didn't read much further coz i don't wish to read more anymore....she wrote something like....
who care about your feeling anymore when u are totally not associated with them..???
who care about your mood when you only like a friend to everyone..???
who care when u are just a joker/an entertainer to everyone..???
who care about what u actually write..???
who care about what u actually say..???
and the most importantly is...
who care about your existence in this earth..???
it show it make no difference having this person in this world...or should say in everyone eyes...ya...i think i am one too...someone told me before...don't care about this...all the friends u have now will not be there in your adult life at all...is it true...???
i don't know how to answer...don't understand fully what it actually mean...maybe i may seem to see things too complicated....maybe is becoz i giving myself too much stress....maybe i am too jealous of my brother life(with smooth things on him...maybe i didn't see his hard part...but at least he have smooth life now)...
but i should say i don't hate anyone for all this...coz i know...
all this is i brought it upon myself...
Sunday, July 22, 2007
11:46 PM
