Long Star-less Night....
hmm....today i left school early....for following my mind...i think....too tired...so left for home....and have a sleep....so nothing particular about it....
just now went to look into the night sky again(my usual routine)....realise the star has gone with the moon....what happen to the star....i thought he/she has been alway with me whenever i look at her/him....always....but this time why he/she is gone....also even together with the moon....i didn't stand long today....coz i thought the star will alway be with me when it reach the night....but its gone....i have alway think it is talking to me...always...whenever i look into the night sky....i am very disappointed....he/she left me without even telling me or bring me away....haiz.....
long night.....chang ye man man....don't really know how to pass every night....every night just can't get to sleep....always thinking about alot of things....things that will never be solve....is it forever.....i know there is no forever....but why...all this things want to bug me like it want to stay with me forever....haiz....people say 24hrs a day are not enough for them....but for me...an hour a day will make me feel even more than enough.....how am i going pass all these days...days that i don't wish to pass anymore....
actually life is full of difficulties...and that i know....but this few months....difficulties become things that i have to cope....days by days....weeks by weeks...and even months by months....why is it like everything crash onto me at one time....for the past 19years plus....i don't have that...is it going to bug me with all at once...???
birthday coming....i don't feel like celebrate also....coz i am sure this is the most disappointed and unhappy birthday i will ever celebrate....maybe the most is my buddy bring me to eat...i appreciate them alot...never take them granted at all...but this time...i think everyone forgets....if really is the case...i won't blame u all de....coz my heart got no mood to celebrate at all....haiz....
people say be cheerful...and everything will be easy....i think i have tried enough....then i only realise that it just a mask....to make people don't worry for u anymore....maybe that better when u don't wish to worries people....but...tired...really tired with mask....want put down....but was stopped alway....haiz....
things to know....people around the world moves....things around the world changes.....animals around the world moves....plant around the world grows.....earth is still keep moving.....
but....
i stopped....=(
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
11:31 PM
