Am i really successful....
am i really succeed....have i...???
i think i am...u know...coz i really have transform myself to show everyone that i am fine...they all tot i am alright le...didnt tot that i can change their thinking....no longer let u,my family and friends worry about me anymore....i can see they think i am alright now....
actually whether i am alright....i don wanna lie in my blog...a place where i share happiness,anger,sadness,frustration and etc....if u really ask me....i can only say...i still hoping for a miracle....
something that i don know will come true or not....but i know that in deep down my heart....it still stay the same as before....i don dare say it much more...but it still stay as much....i still hope for u....i know i shouldnt be selfish...so here i am controlling myself from doing anything....only hope for the best for u....
life isnt much interesting nor exciting for me at all....i only know that with u around...it seem colourful....other than that...it is all the same...staying in a black and white pics...with wide vast of land in front of me with nothing...totally nothing infront of me.....
i know i am not stupid now...really...even though many will still say i am...but i can say...i am really not...i know the reason...i know...
every morning...when u wake up...
who will u think of...????
every afternoon...while u eating....
who will u think of...???
every evening....while u out with friends....
who will u think of...???
every night...before u sleep....
who will u think of...???
and of coz when u feel like talking to someone...
who will u think of...???
my answer to all this....has never changed ever since......
it is alway u in the picture....
but i know i should put myself in your shoes...so have never move at all...i have told myself not to lie...not to make any promise if i cannot fulfill it...i really have done most of it...because of u...i make myself improve to be a much better person...i don know how....but i know i will never leave if ever u need me....for this...i promise u....
misses are through heart now....
misses are through feeling now....
misses are through eyes now....
misses are through body-language now...
misses are through breathing now...
misses are through stuttering sound now...
misses are no longer through words from me....the misses is no longer being said by me anymore...the misses are no longer through my mouth anymore...if u can really felt my misses....i really wish to tell u i misses u whenver i don see u...whenever i don talk to u...whenever u are not there...
do u know that....????
a wish....
that wishes to be able to....
come true.....
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
7:03 PM
