first week of school...
hmmm....start of my 3.1 school life already......it was not a pleasant start with alot of things troubling me.....somemore got a teacher who is very lousy.....don't even know i can pass my mp-sip with this kind of teacher......
was very boring in the school.....really hope can quit school sometimes....don't wanna waste my time there don't know doin what.....alot of people really thought i am back to normal now....really glad....zhen de glad le.....anyway,already not many people see my blog already.....i can finally write what i am thinking without so uch consideration le....
is that am i really ok like what i look like in front of all my friends...????
i got the answer......i should say not completely at all....or should say no at all....still glad nobody knows that cause really don't want anyone worry about me....i feeling not at all happy at all....i have to laugh at people joke.....smile to people.....joke to others when needed....act here and there to cover up....in school....at outside.....even at home......really very tired.....zhen de really tired.....i am going to nearly exhausted by all this.....haiz.....
Sunday, April 29, 2007
4:57 PM
song...
人也许会变
因为经过了时间
聚和散之间
学会了收藏依恋
偶而想起你的脸
还嗅到淡淡的伤悲
你好吗快乐吗
当你闭上眼什么感觉
梦里面什么画面
是否偶而也想起从前
是否偶而偶尔也想起从前
我们都发现
爱只是一种试炼
热烈爱过了
然后又回到原点
往往心中最爱的那个人
最后却离自己最远
为何在爱人的面前
太骄傲不肯说抱歉
一直到了抵挡不过想念
才开始后悔心碎
你好吗想我吗
当我闭上眼还想流泪
这些年问自己千万遍
要到哪一天心才肯对你说再见
人也许会变因为经过了时间
Saturday, April 21, 2007
1:50 PM
so afraid that i will turn insane.....
hmmm.....i am so worried.....so worried......so worry that i will turn c****.....everybody think that i am ok....that very good....really very good.....at least i still do well......he think i happy....she think i happy....me think i happy....but.....nobody knows i feeling not happy at all......nobody......
don't know what should i do to prevent all this......nor know how to not think....that why i stay on with it......but......
Will i turn c****.......????
i also not sure.....not sure at all.....last time don't know why people will commit suicide for little things......don't get what they are thinking at all.....think they are so stupid.....but now.....i don't feel it at all le.....cause i can really finally know why they are thinking this way le.....cause they can't get any help at all or no one can help them at all......another one is avoid the problem they having....for eg. owe great debts and can't pay back so choose suicide to end everything......so do they really wrong....in some points....they are....but in another...they are not.....why they are not....you will never know unless you do really feel like what i feeling now.....it not a great feeling at all....so better pray it don't hit you at all......
so now.....don't say them stupid anymore.....for at least me.....i will never feel they are stupid to do it.....it because they can't really get the help they really wanted in their heart....haiz.....
Friday, April 13, 2007
6:30 PM
Good And Bad People....
hmmm....asking.....why.....why good people always get bullied.....what is the reason for them being get bullied....what have they done to make others bullied them....doesn't all human have the same rights and pride or etc....why they deserve that.....why.....i was thinking about this question for quite a long time....as my friend face this problem....i cannot say my friend are the the most best and good human in the world....but at least my friends treat everyone with respect.....even if another person done something bad to my friend in the past....now the person seek help from my friend....my friend will still help.....help with no motive.....is this kind of people getting lesser in this world.....why so many people like bully another person.....i alway cannot get it.....why people have to interferred in another person life.....making the life of another person more miserable....why.....why must the people doing....we cannot say they are not mature enough.....some even pass the age of 20.....so why....what is the reason....is it there must be really some bad things in order to make the world dont look perfect at all......why everything is like that.....haiz.....sometimes i really try to look everything in different perspective already.....for eg. the above situation.....but something really cannot get any best answer even if we look at all different perspective.....so why.....what is the purpose of doing it.....really really don't get it at all.....or should say everybody have different life.....different lifestyle.....don't anyhow give other people opinions....as this will complicate things.....which turn into so serious that u think so fun....think that is an important things.....Everybody alway asked.....sure in your life you have asked yourself or others before this..."What Should I Do"....been doing it to myself quite often recently.....to alots of thing.....i felt i have learned alot of things recently.....thanks to alot of people and show......it make me think alot....but i also felt like still got alot alot of things.....just a very weird feeling recently......asking myself this....."Is This The Signal To Me From GOD".......
Thursday, April 05, 2007
10:25 PM
a place to visit.....
this is what i got from my friend.....if u are free and don't mind reading it....you can go to the web below to read about the story....i quite like it.....but don't like the ending......
http://ngszeli.net/ngszeli/love/miss/
Sunday, April 01, 2007
11:48 PM
