an answer from CM....
today went back top school in the morning....got an answer somehow...though not what i really wanted...but after my CM said....i felt kinda of cool down and decide to let the matter rest....which mean i'm going to accept the result as it is and the result of others as it is also....hope he really get the feeback clear to the other lecturers....hope all this don't happen on the future students....yes...case finally closed for me for the 3 years of polytechnic life.....now waiting for my diploma in may....
hmmm...after that...went out and have FUN of coz....rarely got this 2 off days for my so-called "supp paper"....lolxx...alway appreciate...never take for granted for any outing at all...always.....
hmmm...was thinking...and thinking...words are sometimes cannot be said coz of certain situation...or will turn very bad....but actions alway don't follow...it alway show what actually i want to say....
conntinue to walk on................
Friday, March 28, 2008
5:38 PM
when will i understand....
hmmm...have been working and working....but my mind is not about anger and tiredness....it is about when will i be more patience....
patience in everything i face....
patience in whatever i want....
patience in when it coming or not coming....
just patience and understanding...
found out that in life...there are alway something for you to learn...even when it is a small small problems...after all....no one in this world are fit to say himself/herself have learn all the things that need to be learnt.....
i'm learning....but i felt i stopped...or somehow ignore what i have learnt and continue with my perseveres.....i only can say i don't regret for the decision i made...ever at all....cause i believe i still hold onto this....hmmm...keep on learning....
need both side......
Sunday, March 23, 2008
11:50 PM
am i an impossible...
oh ya...back to my little blog world now...after the diary world...work was tiring today...crowd doesn't seem to get less at all...it make me miss my break...unable to go for lunch for the day...but i knew something in mind hold me on...keep going....
like the title....that didn't show out...an impossible...want to be a more confident person...everything is possible for me...as long i perseveres and be determined with what i am thinking...but something seem to block me sometimes....so i seek for GOD help...i know HIM will bring me through...i know....i know HE will....right....=)
sometimes words are hard to be spoken....actions speak all the heartfelt words...isn't it...hmmm....do understand...but....
Friday, March 21, 2008
11:51 PM
feeling don't know feeling....
hmm...was in quite blur mode....hope for Daddy God answer in a more obvious way....but i really hope for something that will make me really happy...i know Daddy God know what i'm actually saying....pls help me....
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
11:45 PM
an outburst...
today went to school for the stuffs on the MP....maybe still couldn't really control my unhappiness on the result that cause me to say words that are quite harsh....but of coz no vague or any inappropriate words...going to meet the CM soon about this matter..hope it won't get too bad....i will try to calm down and be more lenient with the words i am going to use...hope i can...
didn't return the book i am suppose to return but clear the renewal....then read on the bus...found certain things in the book so useful i should say or understand even deeper....
"When we complain that GOD has not answered our prayers, what we really mean is that GOD has not given us the answer we wanted.
GOD always answers our prayers. Sometimes the answer is yes, sometimes the answer is 'Not now, but when you are ready,' and sometimes the answer is no. The only answer we really like is the first one,but we often second or the third answer. When we get the second or third, we often say that GOD hasn't answered our prayers, and we feel abandoned or deprived."
there are further explanation...from what i wrote and read....i learnt something again.....
went for movie and book driving test...enjoyable day always with her......
oppsss.....=x
Monday, March 17, 2008
9:19 PM
reflection off-day
hmmm..has been working and working so there is no update here at all...today is an off day for me...this day is gonna finish soon and i gonna do a round up of what i been thinking.....
Working:
yes....i do get very angry with the customers for scolding me on something that i have not done....but if i am them...i do felt the same as them....i don't know why...i don't blame them at all....the staffs there....some are friendly and helpful but some don't....but today thought of standing in their position...i will soehow do the same as them...
School:
i got a result that make me drop my GPA again...the lowest ever in my 3 years of studies..was really angry with it...not about the electives but about the MP....coz really...don't know why, just feel unfair coz a few reasons(don't wish say again le)...going to school tml about this...but today reflect about it....maybe thats the reason that i got this result.....
Myself:
has been thinking and asking myself....but answer stay the same...so i will not change or regret my decision....
all the anger in me suddenly disappear...maybe is because GOD want me to off today to think about all the things....thanks GOD....i know what to do le.....=)
Sunday, March 16, 2008
10:29 PM
not happy with result...
i not happy with the result....esp the MP result...
i not happy now...i want a very good explaination....
not gonna let the matter rest....
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
10:18 PM
full time job....
hmmm....finally....finally found a job....been outside hunting for a job before going into ns for the past week....i have interviewed successfully today....a job that is very new to me...never work in this kinda of service before...quite a challenge...hope everything will be alright....and feeling was still ok...coz the sadness for my fren still havnt go away in my heart...but at least no need to worry about not having a job and cant earn any money before ns....
been thinking and thinking of "life is so fragile" topic again(coz last time i got an answer but seem its not now...)...actually isit because of me not praying immediately that cause the incident to happen...was it my fault.....im not sure.....just feeling somehow down in my heart....
understood something...which is that when GOD dont give u the answer to prayer directly mean HE is asking u to learnt in another way....hmmm....this is what i heard from another fren....
soo......
treasure everyone around you ok.....=)
Friday, March 07, 2008
10:27 PM
tear dropped....
people drop tears coz they are...
sad....
disappointed....
happy.....
touched....
and etc.....
after about a year plus.....for don't know what reason....
tear dropped just now.....
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
11:36 PM
felt sad for her....
today was a day that i felt quite moodless....or should say this week ba....don't know why...just don't know why how come suddenly all my friends around me having their difficult times or i found out that they have been having difficult times....
the previous post was taalking about how lonely my friend is....and seriously no offence that she need more care and love from we friends love and care....which i wish i can give as much as i can....and ya....this is given not because of giving sympathy....it is NOT....it is just that i wish to give love, care and concern as much as i can to my friends....
ok...back to this post....i am going to talk about my another friend...i can see her best best cousin who grow up with her and also made wishes that wanted to be able to stay together in future after start earning money....but her cousin passed away coz of accident...maybe i can't feel her great lost in her heart but i suddenly felt sad....and moodless today of coz....even though i do not know her cousin....just don't understand why....know her for so long...though not very close but haiz.....
yesterday night prayed for her cousin...hope she will be much more happy in another world and don't have so many yi lian....
hope my friend will be alright too....be strong k...don't know whether u will be able to see what i wrote....but be strong...i know it pain...and is very pain....yao jiayou....
DADDY GOD...i really hope to ask u alot of things....i really hope can find the answer i want....i really hope all my friends will get the peace in their heart also....
1:51 PM
human really need care....
hmm...just read my fren blog....didn't realise her life become so bad...or should say worse ba....know her through my working days....at first she was a kind of strong girl who alway will agrue with people when she think she is right in correcting another...but as i have already quitted the job quite long ago...we didn't really contact each other.....but recently heard and seen the blog...realised something....the days that i have gone through is absolutely nothing compare to her at all...i'm quite ashamed of my ownself....really ashamed....
she lost all closest kins...and i can see that frens and relative words hit her hard recently...maybe i cannot totally feel what she feeling now but i know it is something that is so unbearable....totally unbearable...coz i know she has no one to turn to at all....making me more ashamed of myself as i have my loving parents who alway love and care for me no matter what happen even when i am so unreasonable to them after they show concern that i feel so nagging.....
i am such a FOOL....
a BIG FOOL.....
i should be appreciative alway....no matter what happen...coz they are all my closest kins...who will not stop loving me and care for me.....
as for her....and any others in this world who having the similar cases....
i really hope u all will continue to live more happily....as i know by doing these...your parents in heaven then will feel more an wei...u know....and i know GOD will treat everyone fairly....u will be blessed by HIM too de....coz HE will love u the same as everyone else de...not showing biased to anyone....=)
i will pray for u tonight de....
hope GOD will help u through all this obtacles and find your true happiness and feel the warmth again.....
Sunday, March 02, 2008
10:05 PM
