feeling so unhappy inside....
hmmm....it been about a week that 2 of my buddies went in ns le ba...and one of them called me yesterday night...it was like so unexpected...coz think their training will be so tough and shag that they will sleep and call less...but didnt expect they called....
hmmm...their life inside was still good for them...just that was quite shag only- from what they have said la...hmmm....how should i say....the feeling of they went in and i will need to go in later is not good at all....coz is like...from the day we become buddies...we sure meet out at least once to de-stress ourselves...talk crap and whatsoever...though sometimes abit stupid but at least we don't hide anything infront of each other....whatever need to be say....all will be said....be it good or bad...and heart won't bear grudges de....but was kinda sian now ba....
ok enough le...next.....
every move or actions and words said is so important or say zai hu to me....sometimes at night-time was long...waiting beside the phone...it rings....most is not the one i wish to see(the caller) but i still appreciate all the callers and pick up....sometimes do not know why i do feel empty....the kind that i don't feel appreciated(sometimes only)....
though many said before...the more u hope...the greater your disappointment...but i still do feel hopeful for this...just don't know why.....unexplainable feeling....
unhappy...
happy....
only a difference between a thin line...you can feel unhappy for this moment and happy for the next...but unhappy moment don't go away until you really got the answer u want or solve the problems entirely after the situation.....
readers...don't get it....???
it ok....i only wish those that i want to get what i mean...not everyone....perhaps he/she also don't get i really mean....
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
5:40 PM