got an admin job...!!!
hmm...tml will be the day i start on a new work again...and again of coz..a new challenge for me...a job that i never work before, hope it wont be too hard for me to handle and can at least complete a month...
recently, computer isnt in a good "mood"...keep having "mood swings"...so hasnt been able to update...watched alot of movies...and alot of appreciations....love it but only to the seat of a cinema made me having painful neck and back.....
hmmm...once the work start tml..everything going to be very busy...should say because of the working time ba...hope still can be free when i really need the time...people around getting alot of different problems now....but i believe all problems will be solved soon...
ok...i should say...
Eat the "sweet"...
and also...
Eat the "bitter"....
Monday, June 30, 2008
10:28 PM
thinking more and more...
this post was written in a empty mood....so what does my "empty" mean...is it mean....
mind empty,
heart empty,
stomach empty,
or all of it....
anyway whatever it is...i am feeling quite "empty" sometimes....not only coz of my buddies went in ns while im here rotting....as i know enough of the envy or grumbling of them going in first and me later...there is nothing going to change anymore....so full stop for that point...."empty" as in also don't know where to seek for direction...the ever happiness in latter part of sem 3.1 and 3.2 was like going disappear in front of me...i dont see anymore of it anymore....
dont understand..???
its ok...just another grumbling post of mine....maybe i should take a step....but i dont know why alway when a step going to b taken...alot of things will do happen...is it the step not supposed to be taken....???
i dont know...i also know there are alot of question marks on mind....but anyway...the step will be taken sooner or later...told myself before that if the step is ot taken because of all kinds of excuses...im going to regret forever...so im not going to live with regret...so only things now i have is that i hope for more good news.....=)
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
11:08 AM
feeling so unhappy inside....
hmmm....it been about a week that 2 of my buddies went in ns le ba...and one of them called me yesterday night...it was like so unexpected...coz think their training will be so tough and shag that they will sleep and call less...but didnt expect they called....
hmmm...their life inside was still good for them...just that was quite shag only- from what they have said la...hmmm....how should i say....the feeling of they went in and i will need to go in later is not good at all....coz is like...from the day we become buddies...we sure meet out at least once to de-stress ourselves...talk crap and whatsoever...though sometimes abit stupid but at least we don't hide anything infront of each other....whatever need to be say....all will be said....be it good or bad...and heart won't bear grudges de....but was kinda sian now ba....
ok enough le...next.....
every move or actions and words said is so important or say zai hu to me....sometimes at night-time was long...waiting beside the phone...it rings....most is not the one i wish to see(the caller) but i still appreciate all the callers and pick up....sometimes do not know why i do feel empty....the kind that i don't feel appreciated(sometimes only)....
though many said before...the more u hope...the greater your disappointment...but i still do feel hopeful for this...just don't know why.....unexplainable feeling....
unhappy...
happy....
only a difference between a thin line...you can feel unhappy for this moment and happy for the next...but unhappy moment don't go away until you really got the answer u want or solve the problems entirely after the situation.....
readers...don't get it....???
it ok....i only wish those that i want to get what i mean...not everyone....perhaps he/she also don't get i really mean....
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
5:40 PM
grandma safety....
hmmm...my grandma got into hospital after she fall down on monday...was quite worried but now abit better only....hope she will be healthy very soon....dont want anything bad happen to her anymore...that what i wish for now....got quite annoyed with the hospital A&E people....what is A&E for...for those urgent patient that cannot wait anymore to be attend by the doctors and nurses....and of course there should be alot of doctors and nurses on standby there...but was quite disappointed with them.....my grandma can actually need to wait for hours before being attended....what is this...???
we are in Singapore....and i didn't expect that to happen....at first when she fall....she was brought by to clinic by my grandpa and the doctor say her head got internal bleeding and only the thin skin on head that prevent the blood glushing out....isn't it urgent patient now....why there is a need to wait in A&E department.....what if...i mean what if.....something happen...who gonna compensate me a grandma.....there goes my respect for the hospital staff there...disappointed in them.....
ok...back to my original topic....has been outside with my friends and buddies the past few days.....went to alot of different places before my buddies and friend go in ns....went for k session, buffet, gaming and even movies......spend alot...but i know they will be going in soon...spend the last few moments with them....yesterday when both my buddies left us....there was a byebye session for all of us...and also pictures session....time really passed so fast....soon they will be inside...and soon it will be my turn....when i watched their back....i can see that...we are all turning into adult soon...real adults.....hope they will be fine inside and even more toughen up when they come out 2 weeks later....take great care my buddies....
ya...remember....no matter what happen in future....we alway be the best buddies....we all got out own weaknessess and strength...but i believe we are buddies for so long coz of GOD give us the chance and fate brought all of us together...so i appreciate the time spent....and will treasure it as well.....=)
hmmm...has been having the habit of having lunch now....do happy with the company of coz...i heard of this phrase before that it doesnt matter what you eat(how nice the food or expensive the food is) or how far the distance u got to reach the place u going to eat.....it only matter the companion u eating with will make u feel happy.....truely understand this....=)
sometimes disappointment is hang onto us.....sometimes we heard something we dont like but still have to forget about it.....sometimes we felt but never say or show.....life is like a cycle....so true so real.....but i know that i have made this choice.....i have never ever(at least till now) regret it.....
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
3:56 PM
tongue-tied
hmmm....has been with family or should say parents for the past weekend...was glad to have them with me the whole of weekend too...im just another fortunate guy....hmmm...maybe human being are being greedy...like me...hope to go out have more fun also.....
why is it so hard to put things into action than to speak....why is it speak so easy whereas when it is put into action....nothing came out....
i have never got so tongue-tied before in my life.....i told myself everyone is equal no matter u are the most most rich....most most normal....or even the most most poor guy/girl in the world....cause we are all human being....but why do i only feel so tongue-tied....
they are so many things that going to come out of my mouth and when it reach my mouth.....everything was swallowed back....what am i thinking.....i don't meet think kinda of problem in the past at all....
how come....
why.....
i seriously don't get it all......
Sunday, June 08, 2008
9:13 PM
it time to grow up...not the first time for u....
it alway the same old thingy call you to wake up....alway the same old thingy call you to grow up...isn't it....
no amount of experience a person would get or obstacle going to have if the person not willing to try everything...no amount of words also....isn't it....
i have said what i want to say.....it up to one whether to listen and do it.....
**sorry....everyone...u all may think very weird...but that is i wrote for myself to see de....ignore it....thank u....
Monday, June 02, 2008
3:16 PM
