irritating pain with doubts flying everywhere..
to be honest, my pain is still there....painkillers and muscle relax pills look useless to me now....and it is getting worse since it happened....just got a mc to stay at home to really rest myself after the whole week of guard duty....with everything on including the rifle, really makes me felt unbearable....but all i can do is still endure the pain.....
i find it weird...is it really because there are too many people out that really "chao keng"....or else why i can see from different people eyes that i am one of them too....including the doctor that i have just seen too...everybody have doubts on one another, don't believe each other, there is really nothing i can really comment on it anymore....i am really in pain but all i can see is doubts....
i don't understand why people can't "push away" the doubts they have on another and start to trust a little bit more on others.....i don't see it happen only on myself, cause i really seen lots of cases on it too....i have doubts on people too, but i told myself that if from the first day, i want to trust this person, i shouldn't have any doubts on them.....maybe different people really have different thinking as what i have thought might not be your opinion.....
i'm sure there are things that everyone worried about, things that people stress about and even things that are unpleasant happened....isn't telling another person will release some burden on them, even if it can't be helped, i'm sure it does help release some burden that weigh heavily on u.....have more trust in that someone u going to tell, if u really believe in them, they can sense it and help u if really can be done.....
*who shall the someone i need, i need some answers.....
someone.....
Sunday, March 15, 2009
7:54 PM
