Stuck
Its been a week since my break started, just as expected, nothing really make me so excited till i can write a whole long paragraph of stuffs like before. I can only say whats been done only.
Movies are up, none been watched by me coz i got no company to watch the movie at all or should be i don't have anyone feel like watching the movie i fancy so never mind, i'm alright with it. Went orchard at Christmas eve to have the Christmas atmosphere there, maybe i should say "they" are crazy playing(spraying) around but i can see the christmas joy in everyone face. There are people who like this kinda of fun, there are people who are not. I don't mind to play if i have a bigger group next time and willing to play. We are young, but no longer soon, we can play now, but no longer soon, why is there still so many restriction?
Because of the principle or because of the "face". Whatever it is, it is all over, i'm in search of people who really dare to do, not something big but something that is so simple. There are always stuffs that we got angry, maybe only simple things we normally do, people got angry, then we don't do, is this out of concern or just plain jealousy? I don't know what to say, i don't how to comment coz if one have no confidence in himself/herself, everything the partner do will be under the restriction. Hence, i'm not sure whether he/she will be happy about it.
In this world, everyone is play-acting. Why do i say that? It is because everyone(in certain extent) will act to be more gentle, civilised and etc infront of others while he/she will not do it in the "dark". Maybe u may not agree with me, i don't deny u too coz it became a routine, a very normal routine for everyone in this world to do it, so u don't feel that it is of any big deal anymore.
People get weird feeling for different kinds of reason, me, myself got a weird feeling now as in I had a lot of questions for alot of different people. I want to know the answers for all this questions but i never get their answers at all. If you are kind enough, bad answers is still an answers, can you give it to me. I don't need to have an answers that only i'm satisfied, i need a truthful answers. But i didn't get it at all.
And for the first time here, i write: "I hate people who don't reply my messages."
This is very rude- that all i can say to u.
I can see who doesn't want to and who want to, maybe outsiders do see alot. The attitude do not changed after so long, it show one did not grow up at all after one has went through so much, thats kind of disappointing. I don't believe people saying "that's just me", i guess after something happen, more or less, one will change, but i've seen so many with a "NO". Disppointing for u.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
12:38 PM
