Funeral..
I heard them cried. I saw them cried.
A sms from my brother last thursday morning shocked me, my grandmother passed away. This few days have been busying with the funeral, the first day, sometimes on other days and the last day(today), i saw and heard them cried for their mother, my grandmother.
I saw my dad cried today, it a scene that i have never really saw in my life, i guess no matter what had actually happened, she is still her mother, he cried, he is sad. The whole funeral, i'm the only one who didn't cried throughout, i could felt their sadness, i could felt their agony but still, i didn't drop a tear.
As to why, over the last few days of thinking, and to respect to my grandmother, i shall not comment anymore further this time. Maybe it is time for me to really reflect whether i am too agressive towards them.
Anyway, just hope my grandmother will take good care of herself in another world.
Monday, August 24, 2009
3:51 PM
Cohesion
Had csp cohesion yesterday, it was really fun in the pool. But this is the first and also the last for me in the conhesion with them. It just too bad that we didn't take any photos at all for the whole of yesterday, but nvm, i guess everyone had fun.
Only thing that spoil the mood is the service provided by the cafe cartel in IMM, it sucks totally. I don't wanna to comment here anymore and i guess many do not agree with me yesterday.
Was thinking of other things, was thinking of "What do i really want to do?"
nvm, to be continued...(i forgot what I want to say)
Saturday, August 15, 2009
4:37 PM
unsettled..
Been feeling unsettled since about 3-4pm today, also don't know what has happened, just felt that there is something not done, something coming to me soon and there is something going to disrupt my mindset now....Having this kind of feeling really sucks, hope after i sleep, everything will be gone....
Anyway, get to know something which is on my mind for the past few days. This isn't something really new but stuffs that i felt i have finally get to it and is getting used to that. I believe my life will be much better after i get used to it.
In camp has always been the same for me for the past few months, just that there are stuffs that i see in others eyes is different from what i have expected but i have learned to get used to what they gave, i believe once i get used to it, all of them will be nothing to me anymore. To be able to continue to survive in this world, i guess i have to be like this, thanks for your advice man.
Yup, last week found out something that was so unexpected, i knew he had said something but didn't expect him to say it so early whereas i gave him so much trust, what i can say to u is that....
As a friend of me, YOU FAILED....
As a BEST friend of me, YOU SERIOUSLY FAILED....
As a living person in the world, YOU FAILED TOTALLY....
So, my conclusion for you, you don't deserve anybody trust AT ALL....and yes, i'm condemning you. Don't act in front of me and others in front of me anyway, coz you really DISGUST me....
YOU GOT NO INTEGRITY AT ALL!!!
Friday, August 07, 2009
10:49 PM