44 days and 121 days..
It's been 44 days since she left us, the pain did not subside because of the time passed, neither did i have forgotten the days she is still alive especially on the day where she lie on the bed and decide not to wake up anymore. I will never ever forget the day that she left us, a pain that hurt me so much. 44 days are gone, how is she? No one can really answer me.
For the past 44 days, everyone around me been doing so many things, whether is it my family, relatives or friends. There are so many people lost their family member around me within these 44 days, i don't know their feeling but i know my pain, let's hope everything will be fine in months to come.
I'm left 121 days(technically) of ns life to go, with so many of my friends ORD-ed and ORD-ing, the camp becomes more and more quiet for me. The usual late-night talk, gossips and etc become even more lesser. Maybe that is the point when we are splitting into a new environment and new friends being made. Wonderful moments are turning into something call "memories", maybe when we are old, we will meet again as we will be visiting each other funeral.
Anyway, i guess i finally know that i did not really waste my 2 years of life for nothing, for at least, the value of life and towards others, i know it. Shouldn't comment so much now as i'm not going to ORD anyway, take care-all my friends.
Friday, May 14, 2010
3:31 PM
