"Packet" full of burdens..
After today, I left with exactly 15 days to my pinky. Even though i have not returned to camp for a while already. But, I'm neither happy nor sad at all, not to say excited. Instead, I'm more bond to headaches nowadays. I was trying to solve these few problems myself, thinking i can be find the answers myself but...like those drama on tv, things always goes against your way.
Met up with one of my buddy, talked to him about it, he enlightened me with his thinking. I guess i do have too many stuffs in my mind that cause all the stress level to max out. I guess i've been worrying about too many things in life after the ns.
Stuffs like:
- can't get a job that I really want
- can't get the salary that i do desire
- can't pay back all the debts that i owed
- don't have the money to study next year
- family stuffs
and etc...
There are too many things in my mind that's been causing me to lose my sleep for days. I've realised another important stuffs, I've lost the kind of enjoyment I would like to have or been having before I've entered the army. People say, army do change people's mind- yes, they're right, but I'm in quite a lousy state now. I'm trying to revive my life, I guess I need more talks with friends to sort out more stuffs.
ORD doesn't really mean it's the best in one's life, I guess it is just another chapter being opened for a closing one. Stress tend to pile up especially on me, I'm just disappointed that there are people who i hoped can help did not even speak a single word of encouragement.
But, of course, I know everyone got their own problems. So I'm waiting. This time, I do want to know what is the definition of "soulmates", "buddies", "best friends" and "friends" in all of them.
Thank you.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
10:48 PM
