16/09/08~~15/09/10
The time is here. The time that all nsf looking forward is finally here for me. Waited till it pass 12am before I type out this post. Am I looking forward as well? Yes, I do. No, I don't too.
As for the reasons why, I've explained alot of times before, so I'm not going to say it again else I will bored my readers out hah. Going to get my pinky soon, going to go at a weird timing, I just don't want to see that person ever again in my life, let's hope I don't see him tomorrow.
September again. A month with so many babies and those babies are all my friends. I hate September, hahaha.
I want to write something to dedicate to all my superiors in army from BMT to SI to 4SAB:
BMT:CPT Lim Beng Yau-- Nothing to say to u, u should die instead.
LTA Joseph Chua -- Nice having you as my first PC, though u are younger but u taught me
alot of stuffs, thanks..
LTA Hidaya -- Greatly appreciate you as my second PC, I can say you are really my motivator, thanks..
LTA Hedges Leo -- Thanks for becoming my third PC, the encouragement you gave will never be forgotten by me, thanks..
3SG Tan Wei Shun -- Thanks my first PS, though u ord only like one month I enlist, you are respected by me, thanks...
3SG Tan Wen Hao -- Thanks my second PS, though they keep saying your are incompetent, i guess they don't understand your pressure at that time, thanks for all the encouragement you gave especially during the field camp period..
3SG Jeremy Kng -- The kind of fun u gave during PT is great, made us don't feel tired and keep wanting more, thanks..
3SG Suhaimi -- The bear-bear face Sergeant, remember one of them said that of you, i must say thanks to u for all that you had done in field camp as well..
3SG Michael Yuen -- My section commander, the young man who said joining Singapore army just to experience the life in army instead of staying in Canada. Though I still think this is stupid, but for the help u gave me all the way from route to field camp digging the stupid hole, u are the person I should really thank the most, THANK YOU...
SI:As there are too many lecturer around, I cannot list or remember so many of them, so there will be only 2 persons in this category.
1WO Ng Siow San -- Cute warrant, I should say. I guess everyone agreed. Thank You. Nice knowing you and staying in your platoon for 7 weeks. Continue to remember that I'm the first person in the batch to get MC..haha..
3SG Loy Wei Heng -- Only 2 words for this most special guy in my whole army life, that is FUCK YOU..
HQ4SAB:
CPT Kervin Ng -- I think other than wayang, you are quite nice la, thank you for your advice as well..
CPT Luo Peili -- I guess you know that we know you don't like us, it's ok but I want to say that not all people who did not go outfield are useless, in fact, at times, we do even more works than them, pls treat them with respect, especially now to both my understudy.
LTA Clayton Chong -- Lucky guy with both upper and understudy so near his serving period, but thanks for the help u gave, haha...
LTA Ronald Law -- Thanks for the company when we are all bored in the stupid place, going to 2012 liao, bear with it man, haha..
2LT David Loo -- Don't chiong too much, later like what i said in the past, become paralysed..=x..thanks for all the fun as well...
MSG Sze Chia How -- Though sometimes I don't agree with your decision but since you are CSM, then I cannot say anything la, but still must thank you for the stuffs your taught me.
MSG Liew Sing Fong -- Scary to everyone's eyes, but we know what you are trying to do, Thank you..
1SG Liu Ruiqiang -- U never teach me anything lei, haha..but anyway, thanks for all the talk cock session, offs and leave ah...haha...
SSG Noel Ng -- My first PC here in 4SAB, great guy, great personality, but guess at a wrong place ba, thanks for all your advice as well, you are so zai lo..haha..
1SG Godfrey Lim -- Fear and fierce were our impression of him but actually one of the person who do really know how to work, keep it up and thanks..
Too many nsf 3SGs in this category, continue to type, I guess I won't be sleeping tonight, anyway, for those who know I talking about them, u will know that I'm thanking you frome the bottom of my heart, Thanks.
Journey ending soon, hope the next chapter of my life will be better than now. Thanks for all the teaching and advice I'd received from you all.,
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
12:05 AM
Time is ending soon..
The time for this chapter is coming to an end soon in about 6 days time for me. Nothing really for me to be excited at all. 2 years of national service- made me gain alot, lost alot too. Thought the end would be very excited, but i'm wrong in this aspect, it is not at all.
I don't fear to start another new chapter of my life but nothing seems to be opening for me at all. I got no direction at all now. I don't even know where i am heading as well. I've enough of all those negative feelings but nothing or no one is able to take it away from me. I don't feel happy at all even when i'm joking, smiling, laughing and etc. It seem like I'm moving all this alone, no one do understand what I acrually want.
I'm feeling very tired, very very tired. How i wish i will shut down everything for a few days or even re-boot all the data in my mind and restart everything afresh just like a normal computer do. I know i've got to find a way to shut from it, i will find it...
Thursday, September 09, 2010
10:42 PM
