what kind of love do I need?
My mind is always of stuffs- stuffs that I don't even know how to get rid of it. Me-being the master of myself- don't even know how to get happy, what a joke I have become. Days passed just that, weeks gone without me aware, months left me alone and even years do not bring me along. What kind of love do I need now?
I do not know the answer, I've been seeking for it, to at least let me aware what kind is it, in the end, I've tried and tried and tried, all failed. Nothing seems to be getting me excited like I was in the past. Lost the direction of where I'm going to head. Who can help me? Who can lead me?
No one helped, no one is able to help. There were some helped but no one gained success, instead, it got even worse for me. In short, I'm NOT happy at all.
I missed the times.
I missed the hugs.
I missed the kisses.
I missed every single things.
I know it's time to move on and seek for the new love that I'm so late to find now. But heading anywhere seems wrong for me. I'm really sad to say, no one understand me. I'm sorry to say that I am the one who do not share it in the first place. I do not blame anyone, it is just that life becomes more and more of routine plus stagnant. Nothing more or less from it.
I'm tired.
I'm really tired.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
1:31 AM
