mind that do not belong to me
It's been a while, am I still lying to myself? Am I still telling myself that I've forgot everything and move on?
At times, I've got the answers to all questions that have been surronding me, but it seems to stay there after the perios of "happy". I begin to doubt myself, doubt whether I'v forgot everything. No longer believe in what I said to myslef, it seems to be fake, so fake till I can't believe I'm myslef before 2005. I don't deny that I have learnt a lot of stuffs all these few years, but I have lost even more. If there is a chance, I want to be a computer, to delete the memory between 2005-2010.
What kind of friend am I to others? It seems to be very bad when I start reflecting, people may say "change" is the best way to mend a friendship. I tend to believe that and had done that, still, there are friends who left for all kind of different reasons, be it betrayal or see gf/bf more important than friends, they still left for what they think is in their best interests. It's made me thought about the meaning of "friendship". They seems to be of no meaning anymore in my eyes.
The only thing that I'm glad about recently is the person who is sad for someone who doesn't even deserved her love for so long got her love- the person who I hope can give her what she really deserved. I'm really glad for this friend of mine, all the best girl.
I knew from the start, the guy is important, we can see what he really mean to u as compared to the previous one, am glad to hear what you have said coz the kind sweet smile u gave was the best ever I've seen for the past 3 plus years. Never want history to repeat itself, so I will stand in his point of view, leave me alone as well, I don't want to stand in between the two of u again.
How far can one go? How far he can leave the place? How long it is?
Sunday, July 31, 2011
9:45 PM
It's July...
It's July, ya, July, start for the second half of year 2011. Time passed really fast this time, I can't believe it at times but it's true. The most important question is still whether you had achieved or learned something for the first half of year, thank goodness I can say YESSSSSSS.
More and more used to working life, it's seems like I can't do without work life anymore-seems crazy? Erm, not really, I guess most working adults felt that too, just that some refused to accept that, some didn't know. Never mind, it's alright, I'm just satisfied with my work now and of course my goals remain the same in my mind, I'm a step nearer.=)
Had a buffet dinner last sat with rest at Sheraton Hotel. I can say the service is excellent, the atmosphere was so-so, the foods and the price sucks, or should I say, they do not match at all. I'm sorry to say, I don't think their variety and quality of foods is great or good at all, i will not go again. But through this, I've realised something, I came to know that one's opinion or tastes for different stuffs can be very different. How different? A SEA OF DIFFERENT. If you don't understand, never mind. Not happy? Whatever.
Anyway, got to thank my friends for the buffet even though I think the foods sucks. It's the sincerity that counts, not like those "copy and paste" comments in fb. I know that is an effort as well, but I guess I don't felt it on my friends, so, leave me out of this, I don't need that.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
10:53 PM