mind that do not belong to me
It's been a while, am I still lying to myself? Am I still telling myself that I've forgot everything and move on?
At times, I've got the answers to all questions that have been surronding me, but it seems to stay there after the perios of "happy". I begin to doubt myself, doubt whether I'v forgot everything. No longer believe in what I said to myslef, it seems to be fake, so fake till I can't believe I'm myslef before 2005. I don't deny that I have learnt a lot of stuffs all these few years, but I have lost even more. If there is a chance, I want to be a computer, to delete the memory between 2005-2010.
What kind of friend am I to others? It seems to be very bad when I start reflecting, people may say "change" is the best way to mend a friendship. I tend to believe that and had done that, still, there are friends who left for all kind of different reasons, be it betrayal or see gf/bf more important than friends, they still left for what they think is in their best interests. It's made me thought about the meaning of "friendship". They seems to be of no meaning anymore in my eyes.
The only thing that I'm glad about recently is the person who is sad for someone who doesn't even deserved her love for so long got her love- the person who I hope can give her what she really deserved. I'm really glad for this friend of mine, all the best girl.
I knew from the start, the guy is important, we can see what he really mean to u as compared to the previous one, am glad to hear what you have said coz the kind sweet smile u gave was the best ever I've seen for the past 3 plus years. Never want history to repeat itself, so I will stand in his point of view, leave me alone as well, I don't want to stand in between the two of u again.
How far can one go? How far he can leave the place? How long it is?
Sunday, July 31, 2011
9:45 PM